Molly

12 1/2 years ago we went to the SPCA and saw her. For Wesley it was love at first sight. I had to think about her and Jeff had to be convinced she was right for us. We went back the next day and she was still there. We brought her home. It was not a 2 way love relationship at first. She had to go to dog training because she had VERY bad doggy manners. We worked with her. She worked her magic on us and we fell in Love! Now, 12 1/2 years later we had to say good-bye!

I told the boys yesterday after school that we were taking her to the vet today. Their response was to be expected. Wesley was sad...she was his dog. Ian did not say much. Braden was even quieter. Shane was MAD!! Mitchell really did not understand. My heart broke not only for me but for my boys as I struggled watching them deal with death up close and personal for the first time. They love.cuddled.snuggled.spoiled and played like crazy with her yesterday. Today was different. We woke them up and they did not want to go to school. Shane was crying and so was Ian. Wesley was just plain sad. Braden wanted to go to school so he did not have to deal with what was to come and Mitchell did not really understand. I let them stay home. They laid on the floor with Molly. They took pictures. They loved her with all the love they had left to give her and she loved them! They said good-bye. I cried some more.

I took the boys to school. Shane had his last swimming class today. I went with. I came home and cried some more. I snuggled, loved, cuddled, and spoiled her. I cried some more. Jeff came home from work at 1pm. We got Molly in the car. Jeff had to pick her up. I cried some more. We dropped Mitchell off at Rhys' house and went to the vet. Jeff stayed in the car with Molly. I went in and made all of the decisions and paid. I went to the door and saw Jeff walking Molly. I cried some more. Jeff brought Molly in and we took her to the room. I was not just crying, I was bawling. The vet came and talked to us. She told us what would happen. I just kept pouring out all the love I could to Molly. She was in pain and I had to do what was right and stop that for her no matter how hard it was for me. She is gone. There is an empty spot in my heart. I know that not everyone can understand it. She was part of me. Even when I was mad because she got into the garbage, or did her business on the floor...I. LOVED.HER! I already miss her like crazy!

It is going to be hard, and some days will be better than others. I will cry, I will be sad, I will be lonely BUT I will continue on and remember the love that she gave to me. Unconditional, pure and sweet!

I miss you Molly girl. You were the best dog ever!